• dalam diammu, kutemukan jawabannya...

• disaat tengah jatuh cinta, terjadi kerancuan antara menjadi setia atau menjadi bodoh. Kaburnya perbedaan antara rasa pengorbanan dan kesalahan yang tolol...

• dalam keadaan seperti ini, aku merasa begitu ceroboh dan bodoh. Tadinya tak kupedulikan keadaan diriku sendiri, dan memutuskan untuk tetap menemanimu tak peduli apapun yang terjadi. Berbekal semangat dan keberanian yang kamu berikan, aku tetap tinggal. Hingga datang saat itu, ketika kamu tak mampu bertahan lebih lama lagi. Sembari berdiri untuk berjalan, berulang kali terucap maaf. Tololnya aku, karna tak mau pergi. Terus menunggu, karna masih percaya jika kamu pasti kembali suatu hari nanti...

• Sekarang, aku tahu bagaimana cara untuk menangis tanpa terisak-isak. Dan lagi, aku mulai mampu berpura-pura bahagia, meski hanya dengan seulas senyuman. Tapi sejauh ini, tak kunjung kutemukan pengganti semangatku seperti yang kamu berikan dulu. Semua tak lagi sama, dan aku tetap menyayangimu, sembari berharap kelak kau akan kembali...

• Aku merindukanmu. Dalam segala keadaanku, aku benar-benar merindukanmu, dari kelebihan hingga kekuranganmu...

• Aku ini, sebenarnya setia atau Bodoh?

Thoughts of You Keep Running on My Head

Tahu apa bagian-bagian tersulit dari merindukan seseorang?

Itu adalah menghentikan kumpulan ‘rasa peduli’ yang bercampur dengan ‘rasa sayang’, beserta  ‘rasa selalu ingin tahu’ tentang dirinya. Lalu menengahi perseteruan antara otak dan hati dalam memenangkan egonya masing-masing. Dan menghentikan penghianatan manis si hati yang selalu berbalik mengharapkannya kembali, tepat disaat diri telah berikrar untuk tak akan menoleh kebelakang…

Don't Love (Sarangeun Hajimayo) Eng ver - Ft Island

I should go.

I should hurry up, and go.

Because my stubborness will turn to tears

I should hurry go, so i won’t see you left behind

A bit faster, i should hurry and go...

Our departing love, it’s crying now.

Our overflowing sadness spills out

It’s hard, even just one step forward

So i just stand crying with my back on you

Don’t love..

Good bye will always come

It hurts so much that you can’t even breath

I thought that it’d only hurt as much as i love you, that it’d be ok, that i could forget it.

But, no. It hurts thousand times more...

I’m afraid living with my eyes opened.

Because even i’m searching, i won’t able to see you.

Instead of yearning for you,

Living with my eyes closed is probably better...

Don’t love, it hurts so much that you feel like dying.

Tears fall each and everyday

I thought it would be easy when a new love come, I thought i could forget everything, that’s what they said.

But, no. My love can’t be that way...

Camelia 2 - Ebiet G. Ade

Gugusan hari-hari indah bersamamu, Camellia.

The cluster of my beautiful days with you,  Camelia.

Bangkitkan kembali rinduku, mengajakku ke sana.

Raises my yearning again, taking me there

Ingin ku berlari mengejar seribu bayangmu, Camellia

I wanted to chase your thousands shadow, Camelia

Tak perduli kan ku terjang, biarpun harus ku tembus padang ilalang.

No matter i'd lunged, although i have to pierce weed field.

Tiba-tiba, langkahku terhenti.

Suddenly my step's stop.

Sejuta tangan telah menahanku.

A Million hands held me back.

Ingin ku maki, mereka berkata,

I Wanted to curse, they said,

‘..Tak perlu kau berlari mengejar mimpi yang tak pasti.

‘..You don’t need to run, chase your uncertain dream.

Hari ini juga mimpi.

Today also dream.

Maka, biarkan ia datang di hatimu...’

So, let her come to your heart...’

22 - 1 - 2013

“I’m a tough girl”, that's what i thought

I tell it to my self everyday, every minutes, every second in my life

Because i know, you’ll never come back

You let me fly, then when i wanna come back, you weren’t there

I fell and felt the pain alone

I used to cry when i miss you

But i realized, if it doesn’t change the thing, or turn back the time

I was waiting for you till i become a sculpture

Like a fool, i still believe that you’ll come and say ‘I Love You’, like you always did.

I wanted to screamin, but i couldn’t.

I wanted to yelling your name, but you couldn’t heared me

Where were you.?

I think, there’s someone new took your feeling.

I laughed with my friends, but my eyes never lied.

Because i lost my spirit, I lost my dream, I lost my happiness, I lost something that i really want, in short I lost you.

But i know, i won’t be here anymore.

Because i can’t live with the darkness.

Wish you happy all of time, My Sun. But, i also wish that i never let you come into my life...